Its ... ME :)

my chemical romance--im not okay

2004-09-19T18:14:00.000-07:00

Well if you wanted honesty, that's all you had to say. I never want to let you down or have you go, it's better off this way. For all the dirty looks, the photographs your boyfriend took, Remember when you broke your foot from jumping out the second floor? I'm not okay. I'm not okay. I'm not okay. You wear me out. What will it take to show you that it's not the life it seems? (I'm not okay) I

2004-09-13T15:02:00.000-07:00

If youd look inside a girl's heart youd see how much she really cries .. youll find secrets hidden, best friends and lies. But what youll see the most is how hard it is to stay strong when nothings right and everythings wrong<--- VeRy TrUe! <3--BrAnDy!!

A decade under the influence

2004-08-29T10:33:00.000-07:00

Sad, small, sweet, so delicate We used to be this dying breed I got a bad feeling about this I got a bad feeling about this You kept still until the long drive home You slept safe and close to the window... I got a bad feeling about this I got a bad feeling about... Who's to say you'll have to go (I could go all night) Well say you'll have to go (I could go all...) To hell with you

BreakAway

2004-08-25T13:51:00.000-07:00

Grew up in a small town And when the rain would fall down I just stared out my window Dreaming of what could be And if I'd end up happy I would pray (I would pray) Trying not to reach out But when I'd try to speak out Felt like no one could hear me Wanted to belong here But something felt so wrong here So I pray (I would pray) I could breakaway I'll spread my wings and I'll learn how to fly

2004-08-17T16:02:00.000-07:00

WELLL HELLO!! im bored and since I haven't written in here in FOREVER!! i figured I would. I've been so busy with school and stuff .. the teachers assign like SOOOOOOOOOOOOO much homework everynight .. ITS CRAZZYYYY!! Of course I've been actually doin pretty good with rememberin my homework and actually doin it haha .. unlike last year. But gosh I've been so TiReD!! and ill go to bed at like 9:

2004-08-06T16:14:00.000-07:00

The first day of school was today ... upside--i got to see all my friends .. downside-- its school and its boring haha .. OH WELL haha got up about 6ish this morning and got ready and talked to chris lewis a bit before school then texted him on the wayy so got to school and there was like a load of people there .. the line was like freakin long as mess!! haha and kel waited on me YAY haha .. so

2004-08-05T15:55:00.000-07:00

WELL... yesterday was a BLAST! haha .. i woke up about 7:45 and took a shower and got ready and all that great stuff .. then i called chris lewis and talked to him for about 20 or 30 minutes then had to go and texted him some .. so I went to the dentist which is NEVER fun!!! My appointment was at 10 BUT i didnt get in there till like 10:30 and they gave me 2 freakin shots :( which hurt like a mo!

2004-08-05T08:11:00.000-07:00

Its been forever it seems .. anyways SO HERES MY WEEKEND/ WEEK since FriDay! --So Friday got up and went and picked my sister up from Camp and all and watched this lil show they put on? So went to her cabin and saw Andre!! She has grown soooooooo much!! I've missed her! Shes GREAT!!! so anyways got outta there and went to the bank then the metro and got some TaCo BeLL!! it was soo good! then went

Undiscovered --Ashlee Simpson

2004-07-28T08:12:00.000-07:00

Take it back, take it all back now The things i gave, like the taste of my kiss on your lips, I miss that now I can't try any harder than i do All the reasons i gave, excuses i made for you Are broken in two All the things left undiscovered Leave me empty and left to wonder I need you All the things left undiscovered Leave me waiting and left to wonder I need you Yeah I need you Don't walk away

2004-07-27T18:01:00.000-07:00

Today has just SUCKED!! It didnt start out too great and right now its not ending so greatly :( ... i hate it!!! GOH i just don't understand why parents have to be SOOOOOOOOOOOOOO freakin difficult. It just pisses me off. Ok WHATEVER .. so i woke up freakin early as always and got online and was just in a bad mood to begin with. So talked to chris lewis for like a lil while and all and my gma and

Better Off-A.S

2004-07-26T15:37:00.000-07:00

The sky has fallen And it's early in the morning But it's ok somehow I spilt my coffee, it went All over your clothes I gotta wear mine now And im always, always, always late And my hair's a mess, Even when it's straight But so what, I'm better off everyday When im standing in the pouring rain, I don't mind I think of you and everythings alright I used to think I had it good But now I know that

2004-07-24T17:15:00.000-07:00

WHATS UP?!? .. im just sittin here watchin the faily oddparents "ChAnneLsurFerS!" ... its a cute lil movie! my cousin wanted to watch it so here i am haha. its pretty funny though! anyways .. so yesterday woke up at like 8:30ish and took a shower and got ready for the dentist and all .. plus talked to chris lewis through text a lil while! Im SOOOOOOOOOOOOO HAPPY hes BaCk! :) so went to the

2004-07-22T16:47:00.000-07:00

HmM .. blogger changed again?? WeiRd! anyways HELLO THERE! im sooo freakin bored right now!! im just sittin here watchin wheel of fortune like the loser i am and was reading CosmoGirL. Chris Lewis still hasnt gotten here yet :( BUT should be here shortly at lease I sure hope so! im soooooooooo ready to talk to him! so anyways woke up this morning and played around with the ferret and all and

2004-07-21T18:19:00.000-07:00

CHRIS LEWIS COMES BACK TOM! whoooooooo .. im soo glad! ive missed him like TONS! I haven't really done much these past few days just layed around the house watchin tv and talkin to chris lewis .. which has been VERY limited with them stupid calling cards! oh well atleast im gettin to talk to him :) so anyways yesterday the ashlee simpson cd FINALLY came out! GOHHHH ive been waiting for like EVER

Vindicated--D.C.

2004-07-20T08:02:00.000-07:00

Hope dangles on a string Like slow spinning redemption Winding in and winding out The shine of it has caught my eye And roped me in So mesmerizing, so hypnotizing I am captivated I am Vindicated I am selfish I am wrong I am right I swear I'm right I swear I knew it all along And I am flawed But I am cleaning up so well I am seeing in me now the things you swore you saw yourself So clear

2004-07-19T13:43:00.000-07:00

GOSHHH IM SOOOO BORED!!! im just sittin here watchin "Wanna Come IN" on MTV!! haha its soo messed up! but its REALLY funny! BUT anyways aww I talked to Chris LEWIS today! i kept gettin confused with the time and all since they are an hour ahead now its CRAZYNESS! so talked to him on the phone for like an hour or so but had to go before he ran all the minutes out on the phone card :( BUT he got

2004-07-18T19:54:00.000-07:00

Well im BORED .. so i thought id write in here ... anyways didn't do much today stayed up till 3 talkin to CHRIS LEWIS before he had to go to North Carlina <--spellin? anyways so yeahh haha I almost didn't make it .. i was just soooo freakin tired!! haha I was asleep one time but i finally woke up and all! i was prob. sayin ALOT of crazy mess! so anyways LAST NIGHT--went to the movies with chris

Unreachable -A.S.

2004-07-17T09:58:00.000-07:00

Just like an angel, you're gonna make me fly Into your arms, you're wrapping me up so tight You had me crawlin so bad Got me heels over head You got me easy, you got me easy Tangled up in my head Reachin for heaven to help me Cuz we're already beautiful So dont make me cry Cuz this love dont feel so right You cant push a river You cant make me fall But you can make me unreachable I may be

2004-07-15T18:16:00.000-07:00

WHATS UP? :) .. nothin here but kinda sorta watchin terminator 2 with the FaM and all. Didn't really do anything today BUT got up this morning and got ready to go to the DeNtIstT .. which hurt like a MO! they like gave me 2 freakin shots in my mouth! one in my gums and one in my cheek but numbed it and all so it didn't hurt then BUT its really startin to hurt now :( which REALLY sucks for me ..

2004-07-12T08:35:00.000-07:00

WOW- its been a lil while! hMm i guess I'll just start with my weekend SOOOOO .. Friday morning I didn't go to sleep till like 3 or so bc iuno I'm weird and just couldn't sleep! so anyways I had to get up at like 6 that morning to take a shower and all and get ready for Driver's ED .. iuno why in the world we had to drive at 8 in the freakin morning but it was sooooo freakin early!! so anyways

BLOGGER IS GAYYYYY!!!

2004-07-05T12:45:00.000-07:00

ugh .. blogger has posted what i tryed to write sat. like 20 times!!

2004-07-05T12:24:00.000-07:00

HEYY-sorry its been awhile since I've written. BLOGGER IS GAYY!! i tryed to post SaT. but it wouldn't let me. anyways so Friday .. went to the movies with ChRiS LeWis and saw THE NOTEBOOK .. goh it was sooo sad!! and REALLY good i LOVED it!!! so had a blast that night haha. then SaT. woke up around 8ish :-/ ..ive been wakin up so dang EARLY! UGH .. so watched MaLiBu's Most WaNtEd (not too sure I

2004-07-03T18:26:00.005-07:00

UGH my comp. is sooo screwed. It took me forever trying to get to blogger. maybe its blogger thats screwed? heck iuno .. ANYWAYS today was pretty good. woke up at like 8!! GOH i keep waking up so dang early and it drives me CRAZY!!! anyways got up and took a shower and got ready and talked on the phone with chris lewis!! :) we were gonna go and sell these ticket things for my sister but somehow

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--AnGeLs

2004-07-01T21:56:00.000-07:00

I sit and wait does an angel contemplate my fate and do they know the places Where we go when we're grey and old 'cos I've been told that salvation lets their wings unfold So when I'm lying in my bed thoughts running through my head And i feel that love is dead I'm loving angels instead And through it all he offers me protection a lot of love and affection Whether I'm right or wrong and down the

2004-07-01T20:41:00.000-07:00

WELL .. today went by pretty fast. Woke up around 10ish and got online and talked to chris lewis for awhile then got off and he called and we talked for like 4 hours haha!! Watched the newlyweds .. I LoVe ThAt ShOW!! its GREAT!!then some of the ASHLEE SIMPSON show but I had already seen that one :( .. soo got off the phone and got ready to go to driver's ed to drive today. I was kinda nervous

2004-06-30T21:09:00.000-07:00

HoMe SwEeT HoMe! :) been gone to bball camp since SuNdAy :-/ ...it was ok I guess. At first I just HATED it BADDDD .. but then started meeting people and it got kinda better. Atleast the food was good. but the dorms were HORRIBLE!! it was sooooooo gross! The first day just seemed sooo long. and like Monday morning we all got a lecture bc some girls on the 3rd floor broke the bed completely and

2004-06-26T20:58:00.000-07:00

NEILUS IS BACK!! AWW MISSED YOU NEIL!!! HAHA luv YA!!! :))

2004-06-26T11:57:00.000-07:00

I know I posted earlier BUTTTT I'm bored!! Still haven't started packing yet :( its such a chore!! uMm all I've really done is eat and now I'm watchin the marathon? i guess of ThE ReAL WORLD!!! normally I'm not really into the whole thingy but for some reason now .. I'm like hooked HAH!! awww CoDy texted me the other day and said he'd call sometime .. and still hasn't :( YOU BETTER CALL!! i miss

2004-06-26T06:57:00.000-07:00

GOOD MORNING!! :) its about 9ish and IM WIDE AWAKE!! iuno why I keep waking up so dang early now!! yesterday it was like around 8 .. CrAzY! anyways .. im just sittin here reading the seventeen mag. I found on the couch and eating biscuits! :) YuMMM ... goh all week my allergies have just been sooo horrible!! I sneeze like every 5 seconds!!!! OH last night went and saw WHITE CHICKS!! that was

2004-06-22T17:00:00.000-07:00

Nothin much happened today. Woke up around 7:50 .. ChRiS LeWis called and got up and came downstairs and woke up everyone (for the basketball camp im helpin and all) so I was all hungry and stuff and decided to cook some biscuits of course we were running late!! and everyone ws running around the house gettin ready and my aunt kept laughing at me for bein on the phone so early. She says that

2004-06-21T15:31:00.000-07:00

WOW .. its been quite awhile since I've written. LaSt week was a LLLLOOOONNNGGG week. Monday-Wednesday had basketball practice .. then Thursday-Saturday was BaSkEtBaLL CAMPP!!! We did iight .. I was sore as crap though! I did alright though .. made some 3 pointers and layups and stuff. Good thing was it was just in Clinton so every night I came home instead of stayin in the dorms YAY! Ugh but had

--StandStiLL

2004-06-16T15:49:00.000-07:00

it's three in the morning and i stayed up all night drowning in my words writing about you time seems to standstill since the day you left me a revolving door slamming this time so slowly you're running out you're running fast now we were just kids back then two years of my life traded for an ending like this like a love movie without a goodbye kiss why was it me with all sincerity which

2004-06-10T21:51:00.000-07:00

LAker's lost :( .. (not one word GeOrGe)

2004-06-10T18:47:00.000-07:00

Hmm quick post really quick .. LaKers game is on .. and its not lookin ToOo GREAT :( OH WELL .. had basketball practice today .. 2 hours again cept went by faster!!! .. UgH i gotta clean if i wanna do anything tom. (my only chance since the fam. from ark. is comin SaT.) so I won't be able to do anything cept hang with them the rest of the weekend!! BUT thats about it .. i might post later WHO

2004-06-09T20:37:00.000-07:00

NEIL IS GGGRRREEEAAATTT!!

2004-06-09T14:54:00.000-07:00

Ment to post again last night but didn't OoPpS!! :) .. anyways MOM rented some movies yesterday and watched one of em ahha. Along came Polly .. thats a cute movie!! I LoVe It.. not something i'd watch over and over again though. I haven't really done much these past few days extra lay out and watch movies! AHHH NEIL IS BACK! YAY .. haha i miss my lil neil! hes great! .. OH And LaKers won! YEAH IN

2004-06-08T17:52:00.000-07:00

Quick PoSt before the LaKeRs GaMe by the way .. GEORGE they will win .. haha OH and Me and My GeOrGe aKa JoRdAn Thornton are getting married. YeAH its CRAZY BUT we got bored today and came up with the idea! YEAH haha .. anyways gOTTa the game is about to start YAYYY .. LAKERS WILL WIN (i hope) .. <3 BrAnDY!!! :))

2004-06-07T19:38:00.000-07:00

HeYy guys!! what are yall doing?! .. im just sitting here talking to my new friend MiChEaL .. whom I just met last night and is a senior from CLiNtOn .. hes really nice! AND MY GEORGE .. cant forget him .. haha I LoVe You GeOrGiO! anyways .. JUST got out the shower .. SoOo refreshing. I didn't hardly do anything today BUT lay out and watch tv and of course clean the kitchen for a bit to please

2004-06-07T09:45:00.000-07:00

On a Monday, I am waiting Tuesday, I am fading And by Wednesday, I can't sleep Then the phone rings, I hear you And the darkness is a clear view Cuz you've come to rescue me Fall... With you, I fall so fast I can hardly catch my breath, I hope it lasts Ohhhhh It seems like I can finally rest my head on something real I like the way that feels Ohhhhh It's as if you've known me better than I ever

2004-06-06T16:19:00.000-07:00

WELL .. its a boring rainy SuNdAy :-/ ... and ChRiS LeWis is gone :(( .. -REALLY SAD- :( ... this week is gonna go byyyy sooooooooooooooooooooooooo slow!! and I'm ready for him to get back! AnYwAyS .. I haven't hardly done anything this weekend .. cept I went to the movies with ChRiS LeWis friday night. Of course had fun as usual! :) .. then woke up at like 4:30 sat. morning and talked to ChRiS

2004-05-31T09:36:00.000-07:00

WOW .. its been awhile since I've written!! Been VERY busy with everything .. cleaning the house and all. But its finally DONE! somewhat?? Woke up around 5 this morning with it raining sooo hard and thundering REALLY bad!! I hate that kinda weather .. it scares me to DEATH!!! Its gonna be a pretty boring Monday. My dad is home?? I'm not too sure whyy .. OH YEH i guess b/c its memorial day? This

2004-05-25T15:42:00.000-07:00

HeYy ThEre!! just got through eating IcE CrEaM!! YuM!! haha .. woke up at 6:30 this morning ((yeh i felt like i was back in school UGH)) .. talked to ChRiS LeWis before he went to school .. then layed in bed for a LiL while longer and went downstairs and made me some BrEaKFaSt!! SOoOo GOOD! and was feeling pretty good so I made my MoThEr some coffee! then went upstairs and took a shower,

2004-05-24T11:07:00.000-07:00

AHHH I LoVe SuMMeR!! .. feels soooooooo great to be out of school. WoKe up this morning and talked to ChRiS LeWiS before he went to school ((poor him haha)) then I went back to sleep and didn't wake up till about 11! YaY!! then got online a LiL bit and then went and layed out!! Felt great!! GoH the pool is soooooooo relaxing haha. hMm .. but nothing really happened this weekend. Went to the

2004-05-21T07:03:00.000-07:00

The stars will cry The blackest tears tonight And this is the moment that I live for I can smell the ocean air And here I am Pouring my heart onto these rooftops Just a ghost to the world That's exactly Exactly what I need From up here the city lights burn Like a thousand miles of fire And I'm here to sing this anthem Of our dying day For a second I wish the tide Would swallow every inch of

2004-05-19T13:16:00.000-07:00

You're hiding something cuz it's burning through your eyes I try to get it out but all I hear from you are lies And I can tell you're going through the motions I figured you were acting out your part Once again we're playin off emotion Which one of us will burn until the end? Catalyst, you insist to pull me down You contradict the fact that you still want me around And it's all downhill from

2004-05-19T10:20:00.000-07:00

HEYY!! SchOoL Is OUT FoR ME!! FINALLY! .. finished taking my final exam ((GeOmEtRy)) made an 85 on it .. YAY :)) and that was it! The past 3 days have gone by SoOoO slow for me!! so did today .. but SuMmEr Is hErE FoR ME!! FUNN!! haha uGhH .. and I have the biggest headache!! and OMG JaVi is not coming back next year :(( I'm soo sad .. BUT i got this cute picture of me and him on my phone now! SO

2004-05-16T17:20:00.000-07:00

HEYY!! what are yall up to?!? I just got through doin the dishes :( .. i hate it BUT OH WELL! it keeps me out of trouble! ((for the time being)) UmM this weekend was OkAy! I guess .. Friday went to ChRiS LeWiS' house! .. BUT I got my butt chewed out on the way to clinton to meet him from my mom about how she don't like driving in that kinda weather and stuff. AnD JuSt REALLY made me feel so awful

2004-05-13T20:43:00.000-07:00

I never thought I'd come back around I never thought I'd see you again And it took one night when I packed my life And one to take it out again I took a look at a photograph Where we didn't even notice the lens Something came to life from that 3x5 It was you and me and innocence This is what I want This is what I need This is exactly what I've been waiting for I set it up in a picture frame

2004-05-12T21:21:00.000-07:00

It WaS RaInY ALLLLL DaYyY! .. WhIcH ReALLLYYY made me sleepy all day and I wasn't in the greatest mood today at school anyways! Ughh school needs to hurry up and get out .. i swear teachers are soo stupid. Today was ok i guesS?? Had to take this stupid geometry QuIz thing .. ((which i guess i passed who knows)) uMm now I have this long freakin AnP rEviEw ShEeT to do :( .. and goh we have an open

2004-05-11T20:36:00.000-07:00

UgHh .. i HATE it when it rains!! Of course it didn't all day though!! BuT the sports banquet was tonight! It LaStEdDdD FOREVER!!! BuT CONGRADS to EvErYoNe who got an award and all! AHH KEL!! you GoT BeSt OFFeNsIvE!! ThAtS ExCiting! IF ONLY you were there haha. LoSer!! anyways .. this week is going by SoOoOoO slow! BuT today was ok i GuEsS. JuSt The usual .. me and KeL being stupid as usual!!

2004-05-10T21:09:00.000-07:00

HeYy!! its been soooo long since I've written. Been kinda busy and all! I GuEsS!! OH ITS THE LAST WEEK OF SCHOOL! well FULL week of school! I'm soo excited .. yet sad :( I'm gonna miss everyone! OH WELL! Nothing new has really happened lately .. just been doing all this stupid work for school and all. AnD the SpOrTs BaNquEt is tom. .. and I'm NoT ReAdy for it!! I'm suppose to CoOk all this stuff

2004-04-28T16:40:00.000-07:00

Woke up early this morning, made my coffee like I always do. Then it hit me from nowhere, everything I feel about me and you. The way you kiss me crazy, baby you're so amazing. Seven days and seven nights of thunder, The waters rising and I'm slipping under. I think I fell in love with the 8th world wonder. I guess that I'm just falling deeper into something I've never known. But the way that

2004-04-27T14:41:00.000-07:00

I could be mean I could be angry You know I could be just like you I could be fake I could be stupid You know I could be just like you You thought you were standing beside me You were only in my way You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you You thought you were there to guide me You were only in my way You’re wrong if you think that I’ll be just like you You thought you were there

2004-04-25T19:23:00.000-07:00

WHOOO this weekend has been ReALLy FuNnNn!!! Saturday I went with BeRrY and CaRa to the movies and OF COURSE ChRiS LeWiS WaS ThErE :). With his weird lil friends haha. Kinda made him mad i guess when I didn't sit by him at first??? and then I wouldn't talk to him .. BUT it all got straightened out!! YaY!! :) I didn't even get to watch the movie!! haha I was supposely seeing 13 going on 30 .. I

2004-04-24T11:45:00.000-07:00

Welcome to the planet Welcome to existence Everyone's here Everyone's here Everybody's watching you now Everybody waits for you now What happens next What happens next I dare you to move I dare you to move I dare you to lift yourself up off the floor I dare you to move I dare you to move Like today never happened Today never happened before Welcome to the fallout Welcome to resistance The

2004-04-24T09:31:00.000-07:00

WOW its been a quite awhile since I've actually writtin something in here. Gosh this week was soooooo crAzY!! I was sooOOoo MoOdY to EvErYoNe. And I was constantly getting mad at ChRiS LeWis. I don't know what was wrong with me!! ONLY A MONTH OF SCHOOL LEFT!! YES!! I'm SoO excited! I'm ready for summer! But goh .. it seems like I have soo many problems. I swear and I don't know how to deal with

2004-04-23T18:11:00.000-07:00

UsHeR---BURN I don't understand why See it's burning me to hold onto this I know this is something I gotta do But that don't mean I want to What I'm trying to say is that I-love-you I just I feel like this is coming to an end And it's better for me to let it go now than hold on and hurt you I gotta let it burn It's gonna burn for me to say this But it's comin from my heart It's been a

2004-04-20T14:24:00.000-07:00

I guess it’s luck, but it’s the same Hard luck, you’ve been trying to tame Maybe it’s love, but it’s like you said “Love is like a role that we play.” But, I believe in you so much I could die for the words that you say But, I believe in you so much I could die from the words that you say But, you’re chasin’ the ghost of a good thing Haunting yourself as the real thing It’s getting

2004-04-18T15:25:00.000-07:00

ToDaYyy hasn't been that bad of a day. Down part .. I broke it off with ChRiS LeWis. -FeeL kinda bad about it- :( BUTTT!! We are "BeStEsT FriEnDs" AGAIN!! and I REALLY like it that wayy! I tend to have ALOT more fun when we are that wayy! I really think all this made us BETTER BeStEsT FriEnDs!! AnYwAys .. didn't do ANYTHING this whole weekend but sit at home b/c ChRiS LeWis was gone to ScOuTs :(

2004-04-17T17:41:00.000-07:00

Today has been sooooooooooo boring!!! Of course I've prob. watched DumB and DumbeReR like 3490783921873487 times! I LovE that movie! I was gonna go to my sister's soccer game .. but she hurt her leg the first game and my dad was suppose to come home and get me and all and he told me she hurt her leg and wouldn't be playin in the 2nd game. Which REALLY sucks b/c once again I'm stuck at home with

2004-04-17T15:55:00.000-07:00

UgH .. Life is soooo complicated!!

2004-04-17T09:05:00.000-07:00

Eyes are feeling heavy but they never seem to close The fan blades on the ceiling spin but the air is never cold And even though you are next to me I still feel so alone I just can't give you anything for you to call your own And I can feel you breathing And it's keeping me awake Can you feel it beating? My heart's sinking like a weight Something I've been keeping locked away behind my lips I

2004-04-13T17:33:00.000-07:00

HeYy GuYs!! its been awhile since I've written! Lets see here .. haha my easter VaCaTioN was ALrIgHt!! I didn't do anything Thursday or Friday night ..but SaTuRdAy night .. I went to the movies with ChRiS LeWis. AnD BaRbRa and SteLLa and WiLLiAm were there! Of course .. I missed the end of the movie!! ALL your fault chris lewis! GaH ahha j/p I LoVe YoU! .. uMm .. sUnDaY i just pigged out on candy

2004-04-09T18:12:00.000-07:00

You held my hand and walked me home I know While you gave me that kiss it was something like this it made me go ooh ohh You wiped my tears, got rid of all my fears, why did you have to go? Guess it wasn't enough to take up some of my love Guys are so hard to trust Did I not tell you that I'm not like that girl? The one who gives it all away Did you think that I was gonna give it up to you,

2004-04-07T17:54:00.000-07:00

A VeRy tiring day today!! Checked out of school at 9 and went to the bank,to my great aunt's then to shoneys to eat before the track meet. Of course our race wasn't till like 1 something .. so we just sat around haha .. and layed in the sun ..KiNda got burnt haha well not tOo bad. But me being stupid forgot to take my bandaid off my leg and now it looks like I still have the darn bandaid on haha.

2004-04-06T17:35:00.000-07:00

My BdAy was today! FiNaLLY 15!! haha I think my favorite part was this morning I had a message from ChRiS LeWis .. it was really sweet!! Then school was the usual .. cept BrOoKe yelling out "HAPPY BIRTHDAY" all day long haha .. and everyone else yelling it too. GoOdNeSs .. my mom and dad sent me some candy and balloons which I oNlLy have 1 left from BrOokE and KrIsTin getting helium out of it and

2004-04-06T13:38:00.000-07:00

I'm in love with someone I can't have :(

2004-04-05T14:48:00.000-07:00

I'm sorry I heard about the bad news today A crowd of people around you Telling you it's okay And everything happens for a reason When you lose a part of your self To somebody you know It takes a lot to let go Every breath that you remember Pictures fade away but memory is forever An empty chair at all the tables And I'll be seeing you when all my days boil down But it's better where you're

2004-04-04T17:33:00.000-07:00

well everything in life is a chance...everything u do is a chance... so u might as well jus go for it.... --KeLsi

2004-04-04T17:31:00.000-07:00

ThAnKs GeOrGe FoR YoUr HeLp WiTh My PrOb.!! I LoVE YoU!!! :)

2004-04-04T16:54:00.000-07:00

SoO BorEd ALLLL DAYY LONGG!!! I didn't wake up till like 1:00 .. and i layed around and watched tv for a lil bit. Then I had to get up and clean before I got in any more trouble .. so I gave the ferret and bath and all and cleaned her cage! It looks soooo good now!! Then I went to work on the kitchen .. looks aLOT better! OH MY bday is in 2 DAYS!!! BiG 15!! im excited! .. thing is I usually check

2004-04-04T15:00:00.000-07:00

I'm not a perfect person There's many things I wish I didn't do But I continue learning I never meant to do those things to you And so I have to say before I go That I just want you to know I've found a reason for me To change who I used to be A reason to start over new and the reason is you I'm sorry that I hurt you It's something I must live with everyday And all the pain I put you through I

2004-04-03T20:40:00.000-08:00

Well this day has just sucked!!! Except for me seeing ChRiS LeWiS!! GoH i missed him SoOoO much!! but anyways .. my parents were bein such butts today. I mean at one point they weren't even gonna let go to the movies but they ended up letting me .. but I have to clean the house tom. :( .. it sucks. I mean goh .. I don't know. Ok so on the way to the movies I was looking for Chris lewis and my

2004-04-03T11:08:00.000-08:00

2004-04-02T08:31:00.000-08:00

This may never start. We could fall apart. And I'd be your memory. Lost your sense of fear. Feelings insincere. Can I be your memory? So get back, back, back to where we lasted. Just like I imagine. I could never feel this way. So get back, back, back to the disaster. My heart's beating faster. Holding on to feel the same. This may never start. I'll tear us apart. Cannot be your enemy. Losing

2004-04-02T08:24:00.000-08:00

HeYy GuYz!! .. I DiDn't go to school today. Just didn't feel like it haha. So here I am home alone b/c my mom, brother and sister went to NeW OrLeANs today on a class trip. aNd I just got back from WaShInGtOn just WeDnesDaY! haha Seems as if everything is happening at once! I can't believe I woke up so early this morning .. silly DrAke woke me up texting me! haha Oh WeLL I guess! but I was just

2004-04-01T18:34:00.000-08:00

5 more days till my BiRtHdAy!! :)

2004-04-01T13:59:00.000-08:00

-I LoVe ChRiS LeWiS AlWaYs AnD FoReVeR-

2004-03-31T16:26:00.000-08:00

HeYY GuYs!!! IM BACK!! FiNaLLY YaY!! haha .. okay overall the trip was ok .. at first it just sucked!!! but me and kel made the the best of it. We mostly hung out the whole trip haha. Lets see here where to start?! .. Ok well on the wayy up there took FOREVER!!! a 22 freakin hour drive on a darn bus! And KeL being stupid forgot her money for the bus ride so we shared food .. but it did save us

2004-03-25T15:06:00.000-08:00

*I MiSs My ChRiS LeWiS VERY MuCh* I LoVe YoU ChRiS LeWis SoOoO MuCh!!

2004-03-24T19:16:00.000-08:00

HeYy GuYs!! SaDLy .. I'm leaving tom.! .. my last post for like a week! :( Nothin really happened today .. just woke up at like 12 and went and got some stuff for my trip then went to ChRiS LeWiS' house and wrote on his wall haha .. GrEaTt FuNn!! haha then I went to church with him .. my mother got mad at me for being late! Wasn't my fault though!! haha but it was really funn at church .. me and

2004-03-23T18:00:00.000-08:00

Watching every motion In my fooish lover's game On this endless ocean Finally lovers know no shame Turning and returning To some secret place inside Watching in slow motion As you turn around and say My love Take my breath away Take my breath away Watching I keep waiting Still anticipating love Never hesitating To become the fated ones Turning and returning To some secret place inside Watching

2004-03-23T16:35:00.000-08:00

NoTt ToOo Much happened today .. ToOk them stupid Achivement tests again and of course me and KeLsI were being stupid AgAiN .. like AlWaYS!! I've dont forgot what we were laughing so hard about but it was funny!! haha My CoDy came to school today!! YaY!! Goh ... I'm gonna miss him when I go to WasHiNgToN! I'm SoO -GLaD- we are out of school tom. .. I might go shopping or something! HoPeFuLLy I

2004-03-22T20:21:00.000-08:00

I'm was SoO tiRed ALLLL dayYy long!!! School was a bore .. of course it AlWaYs is!! Plus we had to take achievement tests today and I was so tired I couldn't concentrate haha. OH WELL!! Today was pretty cRaZy though .. one minute I'd be ReALLy sleepy and then the next I'd be hyper!! haha CrAzYyy! Goh and I'm sooo fArrR behind in Driver's Ed b/c I missed a week in there and they started without

2004-03-22T14:11:00.000-08:00

Hard days made me Hard nights shaped me I don't know they somehow saved me And I know I'm making something out of this life they call nothing I Take what i want take what I need you say it's wrong, but it's right for me I won't look down Won't say I'm sorry I know that only god can judge me And if i make it through today Will tomorrow be the same Am i just running in place And if i stumble and i

2004-03-21T20:32:00.000-08:00

ToDaY was SoOo much fuNn!! Except the fact I was ReaLLy tired haha. I guess thats what I get for beign on the phone till 5 in the morning. But I got woken up by my sister at like 9 .. goh!! I was soo tired and I kinda slept on and off after that and then at 11 I watched the StaTe GaMe!!! But unfortunately they lost :( .. and it was their last game!! VeRy SaDd!! But I liked layed around the house

2004-03-20T17:44:00.000-08:00

>>GeOrGe<< Is -*BaCk*-!! *YaY* :)

2004-03-20T17:12:00.000-08:00

Today was pretty fun! I woke up to go to the soccer games and all and of course Hob. wasnt there :( LoSeR!!! haah Anyways me and Cody just walked around and then we went to the other soccer fields and saw BaRbRa! haha she looked pretty bored over there selling shirts! haha Anyways .. went to McAlister's with Cody and the soccer team. It was pretty fun cept when I got in trouble by my dad :-/ .. I

2004-03-19T19:51:00.000-08:00

Its been an -ExTrEmELy- boring day!! I woke up later than usual. I was suppose to get on early this morning to talk to ChRiS LeWis. Of course I slept in .. haha. But I mostly just sat around and watched the basketball games on Tv. And I talked to Chris Lewis on the phone for a good while. Hes gone camping :( I'm gonna miss him VERY much .. even though he'll be back tom. aha. But I went with my

2004-03-19T09:43:00.000-08:00

Close my eyes Let the whole thing pass me by There is no time To waste asking why I'll run away with you by my side I'll run away with you by my side I need to let go, let go, let go, let go of this pride, I think about your face And how I fall into your eyes The outline that I trace Around the one that I call mine Time that called for space Unclear where you drew the line I don't need to solve

2004-03-18T17:34:00.000-08:00

FeeLs SOoOoO Good to be home! FINALLY!! Gosh I didn't think the past 2 days would NEVER pass by!! I was forced to go to my grandma's .. and its not that I hate it up there its just .. I can't talk to hardly anyone!! All they really have is satellite .. no computer or nothin. And they HARDLY get ANY SIGNAL!! So I couldn't send messages so I just layed around their house and watched tv most the

2004-03-16T13:03:00.000-08:00

It's down to this I've got to make this life make sense Can anyone tell what I've done I missed life I missed the colours of the world Can anyone tell where I am 'Cause now again I've found myself So far down, away from the sun That shines into the darkest place I'm so far down, away from the sun again Away from the sun again I'm over this I'm tired of living in the dark Can anyone

2004-03-16T10:38:00.000-08:00

i >>LoVe<< *My* ChRiS LeWis!!!

2004-03-15T08:34:00.000-08:00

You called to say you wanted out. Well, I can't say I blame you now. Sometimes you've got to fold before you're found out. Well thanks for waiting this long to show yourself. Cause now that I can see you, I don't think you're worth a second glance. So much for all the promises you made, they served you well and now you're gone and they're wasted on me. So much for your endearing sense of

2004-03-14T14:54:00.000-08:00

well i feel there's something wrong with my life but that's the way it should be i really hate it when i lie to you but what does the truth mean to me well what went wrong your back is turned again is this the beginning or the end is this all wrong you are more than a friend such a position that i'm in well you know i'm trying so hard to live my life without you and i tried so hard i got